Bila Tiba Hari Raya

Okay, disini saya ingin mengucapkan
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf zahir Dan Batin. Maaf kalau ada terkasar bahasa, terlankur kata, terkecil hati and so on.

K let's start :)
Tak sabar nak bercerita ni haaa.
After aku siap utk pergi menunaikan suat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Kiranya jam 8.25 mcmtu lah kan.
Mama, adik dan abgku mengiringi aku sekali :p
Abg aku jd driver kami haritu disbbkan ba aku pergi ke London :(
Haa ckp pasal london jd menyampah akuuu!
Ngekk, aku nak ikut dah terbantut lepas kat sini.
Budusssssssss ja! Meluatttttt. Melepas aku nak p sana :(
K dh stop.

Haaa abg aku slowly drive sbb terlalu ramai sgt that time semuanya berpusu pusu mencari tempat parking da.
Sekali aku terpandang ke kiri and nampak kelibat dia tengah bawa moto and ada kawan dia sedang membonceng.
Kawan dia baju purple-ish dia ala turquoise leerr :p
Alahai hati ni Tuhan saja yg tahu berdegup kencang siottt.
Aku tanpa berkedip tgk dia smpai dia kabur dari pandangan mata kau ni haa. Then lepas abg aku turunkan aku di muka pintu masjid.
Aku tercari cari dia, bayangan dia entah hilang kemana. Hmm sedih. Sungguh!
Secara kebetulan pulak time aku cari dia pun lalu tp jauh dari aku. Dia nak pergi ambil wudhuk.
Mama aku pulak jaaln slow tapi pergerakkan dia cpt lah sbb takut tempat tak ada.
Adik aku lagi lahh lemmmb! Sbb apa tau? Pakai kasut tinggi =='
Hambik kauuu! Pandan muka. Aku sennagg sandle ja takut kasut hilang lah katakan.
Dlm kereta adik aku baru tergedik gedik. 'Mama, adik tak bawa sandle, takut kasut hilang ni haa'
Mama ckp "Takpa, Insya-Allah tak, tawakal ja la"
Selambe dek ja mama aku ni haa. Watlek dah laaa kan :p
Everything's okay.
Before aku nak masuk masjid aku mcm lari nak p ckp dgn dia and nak beraya tp tak sempattt :(
Malu plus segan pun ada. Hm hmm. Melepassss lagi wei :/

F, Farah rindu sgt dekat F :(
Mmg farah dah lama cari f tapi tatau dimana F tinggal tp tak sangka disini Allah pertemukan kita tp tanpa sebarang bicara cuma Farah dpt lihat F dari jauh saja. Sebak dihati tp apakan daya itu saja yg tertulis kan. Akur :) Syukur Alhamdulillah, Allah dh makbulkan permintaan aku utk berjumpa dgn si dia tanpa aku sedari air mata aku sudah mengalir sbb terlalu rindukan dia.

Selepas ja habis dari solat tu aku cari kelibat dia takda puns bb kami keluar lewat. Ishhh. Tgk lepas lagi.
Org ramai sgt lahhhhhhhh!
Haritu dekat bazar bayan lepas aku terserempak dgn 2 org kawan dia ja.
O-Y dgn K-M-L aku cari dai tp takda pun.
Entah dia dah kahwinka tunang ka aku pun tatau khabar berita dia.

Lepas ja habis aku jalan dgn abg aku, mama and adik menuju dimana kereta kami parking =='
F : Tadi tak nampak J-- lalu depan hg?
D : Aku tgh drive tak nampak laa, awat?
F : Depan hg ja pun, dia nak corner p tmpt parking laah.
D : Takkkk! Tak nampak. Haaa jumpa kekasih lama nampak.
F : Manadaa. Tgk dari jauh ja pun tu pun kita tgh kelam kabut mcm sang kalibuttt. Hmm.
D : Aikk, entah entah ada petanda tuh.
F : Merepek. Takda kotttt.
D : Selalunya ada laa.
F : Yalaa tu. Hatiku sayup.

# Ya Allah tolong pertemukan diriku dgn si dia sesungguhnya aku amat merindui dia setelah lama ku cari kenapa skrg baru kutemui? :(

- I didn't mean to make you mine

Sometimes you have to lose the things you love.
I miss him..
I wanna scream for him to hear it.
I used to believe love has happy endings.
That no matter how longer or how far we may go, love won't fade away.
I thought love is with me and I had found the right guy for me.
But for all I know,
All those thoughts would burst like a bubble.
It's hard to accept the fact that things change.
Feelings.. And people.
One day, that someone you love will suddenly realized he doesn't love you anymore.

And that he has to go...............................
It hurts enough to know that his feelings had fade,
But it hurts more when you know you're not ready to say goodbye and set him free.

Every night I cry until I fall asleep.
Every morning I wake up remembering his face,
The way he look at me,
The way he make me feel I am loved.

Few days or weeks or months have passed.
Still I am stucked here.
Lonely and alone.

How I ever wish he never had to make me feel those feelings before..
He never realized how I am hurting.. Inside and out!
But what do you do when the only person that can make you stop huting is the one who hurt you at the first place.
I wish he never had to say that he will love me forever.
Forever :(